Some days...

Some days are somehow made to feel like crap... i dunno bout you... but it happens really often with me... i wish i could undo some days... maybe make them a little less painful... yeah yeah... i've heard enough of the 'each day is part and parcel of wat makes us us'... i'm tired... somedays just feel so bad that u wana hide away... maybe for a day, a week... maybe for good... u noe... i'm good for nothing... really... i just can't do things right... everything somehow manages some way to go wrong... i want a break from life... from my life...

Life...when you thought things couldn't get any worse...

Pink...

i'm not a big fan of pink... nope... i'm no girly kind of girl... it can be nice on certain things... but not on me... some how... probably i'm too dark for pink... i especially hate the pink that is closest to magenta... i always associate that colour with old aunties wanting to look young and hot again...

UGH!!

I painted my nails for prom just the other day... pink... in a shade that was around the middle range... after painting all my nails, i stared at my hands... this is not me at all... and plus all the tiny flaws of applying (signs of OCD)... i washed everything off in the end... i would have painted black... but for a prom... it just didn't sound right...

Prom sucks when u barely knoe people... oh ya... and i did my hair at a salon... i think i may just look nice in curls... may be i shud try curls instead of rebonding the nex time... they curled my hair and pinned it up to somewhat look like a bun... before they pinned it up... my shoulder length hair were short curls... i kinda liked the look... looked a little retro but different... but then again... all of my hairstyles end up awry within two days...

i'm a little bored n tired of work... so i decided... there's so much weight loss program around... could there be anything on gaining weight?... so i googled it and indeed there was... a lot in fact... looking at one of the websites, it seems i had to count the calories of wat i eat and then add 500 calories to that... ur weight will increase but when it stagnates again, u shud add another 250 calories to ur diet... sounds like being a glutton at the end of the whole thing... how bout if i fast for a week and then eat like normal back again?... don't they always say that if u stop eating ur body starts realizing it has less resources and starts storing fats, and then when u eat normally back again u actually gain more than wat u lose during the fasting?... u noe wat... i'm getting hungry...

Be wary of toilets...

Crazy Japanese Port-O-Potty Prank - video powered by Metacafe

Just a little something...its hilarious

Just one of those days...

Too many things to worry about at this point of time... MBB assignment... GEN lab report... research project... being a cell group assistant??... my head is just killing me... plus i'm not sure if i have flu or sinus now... all i noe is i'm dying soon... actually do you ever die of excesive stress?...
rushing to print and pass up assignments today and was clobbered with questions from those who haven't finished their lab report... suddenly i felt so 'wanted'... i'm actually not sure if my group member copied my report... she's well known for that... anyway, din get to meet supervisor for advice on my minute sample... and i'm doing the antimicrobials again tmrw coz there wasn't any result from the first time...

today... i decided to do something good... i had a friend suffering from a bad cramp... you noe... the usual monthly thing... i suffer every month... so i noe what its like... so i tot maybe i'll just go to the tuck shop and get the pink pills for her... got it for her... she took one... waited a while... it was lab class... so we were all listening to the lecturer blab on... then as i turned back to my paper on the desk (she sits facing me)... she's gone... i tot maybe it was just the call of nature... then she came back... and i found out that she vomitted out pink stuff... -_-" man, its like in-your-face at its worse... another friend commented that some ppl are allergic to it (???)... no idea that the pink pill could cause that... tot only certain proteins and antibiotics had that effect... and this morning i wrongly recognized someone... so 'pai seh' man... haihz...

how many clues do you need before you knoe its gonna be one of those days?....

I...

I just...
...found out that 'prawn' does not exist in my phone's dictionary and neither does 'shit'
...watched cartoons today

I am...
...not 'THE BIOTECHNOLOGIST' or 'THE PERFECTIONIST'
...lazy
...eating an egg now
...me :)

I have...
...tonnes of work and a bad headache to go with it
...friends :)
...a low tolerance for repeated rapping of fingers on the table, repeated kicking of my chair or table, repeated coughing or clearing of throat, noisy eating or chewing especially when i lack sleep and food
...a minor bout of OCD
...to prepare for sunday school
...no idea why i'm writing this for

I want...
...to be fatter
...a holiday
...to find something that adds up to a google of it just to prove that what i read in the newspaper is wrong (carbon atoms??)

I will...
...finish my lab report today
...talk less
...fall from the 13th floor, break my neck, crack my skull and die

Bugged...harrassed by this little thing a few days ago while doing assignments

Today...

...i weighed out my crystals
...i officially start my antimicrobial tests :)

i din have the weight of the vial the other day...so i had to redissolve the crystals and transfer them to a new bottle...i came today to find fine tree-like branching of crystals... may not mean anything to anyone else... but i'm ecstatic :) ...i wouldn't really have felt this way if i hadn't gone thru my industrial training though... the pain staking hours of drying the raw samples, grinding them, extracting and then purifying the compounds really makes the sight of those crystals all worth while... imagine with me a 1kg starting sample... ending up with only about 0.2g of the pure compound that we really want... and the whole process takes up to 2-3 months... full 5days working hours that is...

My sample. Just beautiful...

The funny looking orange colour crystals are the pure compounds of my sample. This bottle was sent off for further tests to identify the structure of the compound

you noe... i din noe my skinny-ness was that bad... went to meet up with the head of science today together with two other friends... to complain about a certain lecturer... went well... but at the end of it he said:

"You noe...you shud eat more..."

* no i dun noe...i look myself in the mirror everyday and tell myself i'm fat...-_-" * "Its just high metabolism"

"You better not skip meals...you can't afford to diet"

that of all things...

anyway... was FORCED to skip lunch today... coz of my project... not that i purposely duwana eat... i'm out of time... several of them have already finished their project... and its nearing the end... i'm just hoping this antimicrobial test goes fine so that i can do the replicates without having to recalculate the concentration and mass of sample i have to add...

Frustrations...

If u dun wana help...then dun...dun ask me to go and ask you for it...is this wat i get for helping you?...i have to beg you?...fine...have it your way...i know i'm probably just over emo...it happens sometimes...i just need a reason to cry...i wanna cry...just feeling down...i dunno why...

Sometimes u reach out...hoping for a solid support...but u just grab at thin air...the mirage...deception all along...u assure yourself again and lift that tired arm...you touch nothing...empty...nada...lies...believing in wat you wana believe...reality bites...

I dun get it sometimes...i'm giving everyone a reason to send me to a psychiatric ward...is no one gonna send me there?...

Multiple choice...

Why did i bring them home?
a. their cute
b. i survive on the fumes of volatile organic chemicals
c. science taught me a better way of making guys sterile

Stand up comedy by Danny Bhoy...

A little something that i found quite interesting. Sent over by a friend.

Things that remind me of you...

White wiras

That certain scent

E-mail flooding

My brown top

'i miss your smell'

Vanilla

'Girl...'

Your smses

Interesting advertisement clips

PDA phones

'Green eyed monster'

Movies in the cinema

'i miss you'

*sigh* how long more til i forget...

Living without chilli...

...is like life without its thrills...its like tomyam noodles without the tomyam...its like teh halia without the halia (actually, without the halia the tea tastes better =P)...

having a bad cough and sorethroat...had flu a little earlier...which resulted in my throat getting dry and sore in the first place...its now a little better...but i really hate it when my nose gets stuffed...have been refraining from fried and heaty stuff...well, at least tried to...nothing was not fried during our barbeque the other day...i had lamb...

i'm currently dying...the insufficiency of chilli or sambal in my system is taking its toll...the lack of chocolates and fried stuff...ARGH!!...anyway...i've been naughty today...i finished half a canister of popcorn...

what remains of the popcorn...

n i'm going to have my sambal later...I DUN CARE ANYMORE!!! I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!...=P