The old wound...

a fren just reminded me of a certain fact today... ok... maybe not a 'fact'... at the cost of my brokeness, a life was saved... seriously... i dunno wat to say... i dunno whether to be mad or glad at the statement... maybe she was right... we're all instruments of God... i haf to look at the big picture... i was part of a plan to save a life... i should be rejoicing at the life saved... but my sis mentioned the other side of it... would God really cause such hurt?... would God have really wanted me to hurt in his plan?... or was i jus in the way?... the pain was real... so much so that physical pain hurt less...