And God said No...

A friend sent over a youtube... 10 questions every intelligent christian must answer... I may not have the answers to all as i have not claimed to be intelligent... but for the first 2 questions, the poem below surmises it.

And God Said No
by Claudia Minden Weisz

I asked God to take away my pride.
And God said “No”.He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
And God said “No”.He said her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
And God said “No”.He said patience is a by-product of tribulations. It isn’t granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
And God said “No”.He said He gives me blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain.
And God said “No”.He said suffering draws me apart from worldly cares and brings me closer to Him.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
And God said “No”.He said I must grow on my own. But He will prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
And God said “No”.He said He will give me life, that I may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
And God said “Ah, finally you have the idea!”

Langkawi...day 2...

the next morning was FINALLY sunny...not sunny enough for a good tan but good for a day out...Pravin was hungover from the day before...so he rested while we went to sit cable car...



the view was awesome...

ching was afraid of heights...

there was such a vast difference in the temperatures up at the peaks...since it was the rainy season, we were among the rain clouds...was really cold and windy...and the clouds blocked us from the panoramic view from the top...

back at our rooms...Pravin sobered up a bit to go for island hopping...RM25 per person...so we grabbed some lunch (junk food and soft drinks)...then waited...



and waited...



the boat ride was a little rough...choppy waters...





first island was the famous Pulau Dayang Bunting...


went to swim and sunbath a while...



next destination was to watch eagle feeding...never seen so many at the same area the same time...they seem to already know that there'll be food...



last island was Pulau Beras Basah...we just hung around...



i looked for interesting shells and sea-washed stones...


then it was time to go...


dinner at USSR...met Suet-Li and family again...LOL...

Langkawi...day 1...

great time to be at Langkawi during a rainy season...

we took the airasia package of flight + hotel...was only RM215 per person...to me its was damn cheap...besides...i seriously needed a holiday...

So at about 7pm, we waved goodbye to LCCT...

me? I was ecstatic...

we arrived in about an hour...got a taxi to send us to our supposed hotel...but instead was left drenched tired and hungry as we searched for our dwelling...anyway...by about 9 something we finally got to our rooms...Yang and Pravin went on a mission to rent a car...and came back with pizzas...and booze of course...Pravin runs on beer...

got up the next morning...still raining...rained the whole night thru...never i my life have i experienced such a long-winded rain...but we knew we had to at least get a car...so in the drizzles, we set out...

RM50 a day kancils were all out of stock...so we settled for a RM60 a day kancil...and while Ching and Pravin were negotiating on the car, Yang and I got a little crazy with cheap sunspecs...

our first day was dedicated to duty-free shopping since the sky din stop pouring...which obviously means Pravin with more booze...


dinner that night was at some seafood restaurant just 5mins walk from our rooms...also where we met Suet-Li...though i have no photos of her with me...

met up with Suet-Li and Kevin (Suet-Li's bro) that night...went to some club...

after about 10 glasses, Pravin was gone...he took tons of pictures with random ppl...drank another girl's beer...and broke his tooth during a fall back at our rooms...

Sometimes...

sometimes you wonder if you'd ordered the right meal...there's the cheaper but heartier set... and there's the expensive and not very filling gourmet meal... sometimes you look thru the menu and all of it sounds great but you know you can only order 1... and when you've ordered, you wonder what the other dishes would taste like... then sometimes you get a whiff of whatever the other table is having and you wished you ordered that instead...there's too many 'if's...

My assistant handed in her resignation today. Its not like she’s an asset to the company but she’s the only other person with a proper micro background, although it’s just a diploma. She’s not that great. Doesn’t understand why some things are done a certain way and doesn’t really bother to find out. She grumbles, sulks and takes longer to adapt when I try to make vital changes. She got me to do some of her work along with my own work (then again I’m easy to be bullied). She likes to take MC. Actually all the lab assistants seem to enjoy taking MCs at times when you need them the most. She used my words against me. She sleeps in the lab sometimes. She chats longer than she works. She’s the only assistant daring enough to surf the net for gossips and check job application emails using the company’s computer. But I’m gonna miss her….I think.

Ironically, just as I’m about to publish this, another assistant just handed in her resignation. Strange day…

Dear Dad...

I noe you still think you're right... i'm not trying to say you're wrong... i just need you to understand my side of the story... before you jump into conclusions saying i'm too smart to accept your "suggestions"... all i'm trying to do is explain why i did wat i did... i'm not saying you were wrong... i never did say that you were wrong... but even my explaination was crap to you... that my reasoning made no sense to you... you're saying exactly that my explaination as to why i did it wrongly is totally wrong... ironically... i'm sorry i dun have the engineer's mind of yours... i dun think the same way you do... when it comes to technicalities, i dun really think much... unless i get ample time to think of what to do or to say... i'm a just bio student... and even when u claimed and insisted that fermented fruits were enzymes though i tried to correct you, i din argue when u wanted to believe they were enzymes... and i have never claimed to be the smartest in the family... i've lived all this time trying to live up to your expectations... i'm tired... really tired... i dunno what is good enough...

Random thoughts...

i'm thinking of disappearing...like seriously pack up my things...go somewhere for a few days...and not tell anyone...need some peace of mind...too many things to do, to think, to worry about...

i'm thinking of ice cream...lots of ice cream...yum!

i'm thinking of the right valentine's day present...but i'm lacking in funds, time and resources...*sigh*

i'm thinking of slinkies...and how they dun exist anymore...at least almost...

i'm thinking of my teddybears...wondering whether to keep them for memories...or donate them and make a poor kid happy...

i'm thinking of what life would be if i swapped brains for beauty...

i'm thinking of how i'm putting of sewing a loose button until tmr or monday...

i'm thinking of what it would be like to have cancer...and probably die an early death...what i would do at the last moments of life...what i would want to eat...what i would want to do...

i'm thinking of a light sea breeze...clear green-blue waters...warm sands...

December 6...Christmas Carnival at Summit...

I really thank God for the weather... God gave us a cloudy day so that it wouldn't be too hot for us helpers and it wouldn't be too cold for ppl not to buy our ice kacang and 'leong char'... though there was no rainbow, i knew my God was there... was kinda hectic the whole day... but fun... i partially jaga-ed the redemption counter and went around taking photos... i'm not sure how much we made from that day though...

our cell group's stall

DJ Sean in da house, our very own Rev. Ps. Sean Prasad.

My youth leader attempting to free the toy cow...n got all four locks out before the 3 mins was up

Chew in action...our miniature basketball game

Hui Ling throwing hoops

Thanks for coming to support...really really really really appreciate it... and i'm really sorry that you got the toy pumpkin as a redemption gift... LOL...